The Ballerina, The Leap Frog, The Fetal Punch. I Always sleep like that, I don’t know how I got used to sleeping with “The Ballerina” position. It started when My insomniac got worse, I fell asleep like that ‘coz I can’t breathe with my hands down. (:
“The Static Cling” Please. ((:
Off to sleep.
Truths behind my overly used term “I’m bored” / “boring” / “bored”
When I say these expressions, I mean it 25% of the whole time I used it. Sometimes when I say them, I mean:
- I’m tired/exhausted.
- I’m sleepy.
- I wanna go home.
- I don’t wanna talk to you.
- I wanna talk to you but I don’t know what to say.
- I really don’t know what to say.
- I’m out of words to say.
- The weather’s hot.
- I have nothing to do.
- There is nothing to do.
- I wanna end whatever’s happening.
- I’m too lazy to do anything.
- I’m not feeling okay.
- I’m sad.
- I’m crushed.
- I wanna do something, but I can’t.
- I wanna go somewhere, but I can’t.
- I wanna talk about something, but I can’t.
- I have no one to talk to.
- There are too many people to talk to.
- My connection’s slow that I can’t talk to tumblr.
- My mind is apparently not working, it usually ends up with me staring straight ahead without anything in mind.
And YES I AM TOTALLY BORED.
I’M A STONE HEARTED GIRL.
As they say, I am one. I don’t know why though, I’m guessing it’s because of the mistakes I made before and the “I don’t know” and “I don’t care” that I’ve said before. The decisions I made that I thought was for the better and the truths I knew that I didn’t do anything or I did something but didn’t do good for some people.
“I don’t know”
Some people say I pretend to not know when I do know, so I ended up being stone hearted for ignoring details. Well yeah sometimes they’re right, usually they’re wrong. I do know, and sometimes it looks like I’m doing nothing but the truth is I’m doing everything I could to avoid hurting them. It always feels bad when I do this, ‘coz I know it’ll hurt other people but it’s the best I can do to avoid hurting them more on the long run. I love my friends, I just don’t want them and everyone else to have the wrong idea. It’s okay if I get the bad image, as long as no one else gets hurt. That makes me stone hearted I guess.
“I Don’t Care”
I do care, seriously. Maybe here I’ll say yes I am stone hearted BECAUSE It’s kind of easy for me to act like I don’t care when every time it’s all I can think of. Well, yeah I
getgot broken up and I don’t know if I was transparent or not. But I only get to say “I don’t care” because I really didn’t care if I get broken, in the end it’s for my own good. I did care, for other people. I guess I did hurt people without the intentions of hurting anyone.
So yeah the hell with me ranting about me, myself and I, all I know is I do care, I am stone hearted and I’ve heard that a few times already. I guess I can’t express myself too much because before that comes trust which I gratuitously gave away and was broken anyways. I know I’ll learn to give it in time to the right person which I know I’ve found already. Wow, too much information. K.